C h a z a q It means "Strength" |
Why do I feel this way... a tragic death only seems so because there is someone else left behind. I am bound to so many people. Sometimes...sometimes I resent it. And yet, I would have gone so long ago if it had not been for you. I'm alive because of you. I am dizzy with thoughts of death. I'm just so tired. The semester is over, and I can rest. I hate to rest. To be able to rest means I have little purpose. My sole purpose becomes simply to survive...for no other reason than you...so you won't experience tragedy. And so I create purpose...silly activities...things to occupy my time until the natural course of life gives me what I want. I'm going to go to workout. You don't get a body this taught without a little exercise. Dwell on that. |
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